I just want it to end
Just Wanna Testify (West End, #5) by Pearl CleageFamiliar faces and places meet fresh twists and turns in this enthralling novel from acclaimed author Pearl Cleage.
Atlantas West End district has always been a haven and home to a coterie of unique characters--artists and thinkers, dreamers and doers. Folks here know one anothers names, keep their doors unlocked, and look out for their neighbors. Anyone planning to sell drugs, vandalize, or rob a little old lady should think twice before hitting this part of town. And Blue Hamilton, West Ends unofficial mayor and longtime protector, will see to it that you do. Blue wears many hats here, including adored husband to Regina, dear nephew to Abbey, and doting father to Sweetie and another little one on the way.
Blue is also the man you pay your respects to if youre looking to set up shop in this urban enclave--just ask Serena Mayflower, whom Blue sees striding down Ralph David Abernathy Boulevard wearing skin-tight black leather pants, thigh-high boots, and bright red lipstick. This tall, slender, ethereally beautiful woman and her four equally striking sisters make up the Too Fine Five, a quintet of international supermodels who have arrived in town for an Essence magazine photo shoot.
But Blues gut tells him that theres more to these Mayflower mademoiselles than their affection for full moons and Bloody Marys. With the help of his beloved Regina and their close friends and relations in West End, Blue vows to uncover the womens secret intentions--and prove once and for all that there is no greater force on earth than the power of love.
A mesmerizing slice of not-so-everyday life, brimming with wicked wit and spiced with a few supernatural surprises, Just Wanna Testify showcases Pearl Cleages masterly storytelling at its soulful and satisfying finest.
It Hurts Too Much, I Just Want to End it All
"I never wanted to die, I only wanted to end my pain."
If you experience suicidal thoughts, the following post could be potentially triggering. I know this is an extremely sensitive topic, but it is one that needs to be discussed. Because I know for a fact that at one point in our lives, we have been suicidal or have known someone struggling with these thoughts. One in five people struggle with mental health issues. That means for every room you enter with hesitancy and your head turned downward, believing you are the only one with issues, one in five of those people are going through the exact same thing. For someone who has never experienced suicidal thoughts, the thought of wanting to die in itself can seem ludicrous.
I'm tired of fighting. I just want it to end. I'm not sure why I'm even on here saying anything. I don't talk to anyone. Not even my wife.
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If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain. I don't know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you're reading it, and that is good.
This is the story of the night I tried to end my life, how I survived, and how I was able to work towards a recovery I no longer thought possible. The rain-slicked street flashes in and out of the night as a steady trickle of headlights pass over the bridge. With a desperate need, I walk, frantically, calmly, each step driven by a wretched determination. My backpack, protecting my miserable attempt at a suicide note, is the only thing I want to survive the night. Some people think suicide is a cowardly or selfish act, but carrying it out is far from easy. Forming the foundations of all life is the urge to survive. As I tread farther up the bridge, the river sinks below.
Trigger warning: this article covers sensitive content involving suicide. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: It gets better. Because I know for a fact that at one point or the other in our lives, we have been suicidal or have had a friend dealing struggling with these thoughts. One in five people struggle with mental health issues. That means for every room you enter with hesitancy and your head turned downward, believing you are the only one with issues, one in five of those people are going through the exact same thing.